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7 days to go...

5 days ago
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I've been on my summer vacation since August 1st, but the start of it wasn't really the best. My dear boyfriend, whom I've been seeing since June 19th, left Finland for 3 weeks to spend his vacation with his family living in Turkey.

The day of his departure was really hard for me. I tried to keep the happy face and I succeeded, until we started to carry his bags outside. I simply bursted into tears, and the rest of the day went by crying. I think that day was one of the worst and longest days in my life.

Now it's 7 days until he comes back to Finland, which makes me very happy. Even though I've been missing him terribly, I'm also quite thankful of his absence, as weird as it may sound. I've had lots of time to sort out the million thoughts I've had concerning our relationship; me and my boyfriend haven't had the easiest start.

The biggest issue has been our age difference. He is a bit older than me, and that has been a little problematic, since in the beginning of our dating I was really insecure and scared of what other people might think about us. My fears turned out to be completely unnecessary, since my friends and my family (my father not included) have accepted him with open arms.

And yes, my father is the only one who has a problem with him. The age question and the fact that my boyfriend is Turkish, displeases him greatly. I haven't been that much in contact with my father because of that. I just can't deal with his questioning about us all the time. His comments and questions about my boyfriend hurt so much, and the saddest thing is that he hasn't even met him yet! And I think I won't introduce my boyfriend to him for a while, not before the situation gets better.

Another issue bothering me has been the fact that my boyfriend is divorced and has 2 small children. His divorce isn't quite finalized yet, he separated from his wife on May this year, which means that the divorce will be final after 6 months of separation.

I know that I have nothing to worry about, we are in love and happy together. It's just that now that I've been staying in his apartment during his vacation, I've found his wedding ring (next to a letter I wrote him during my vacation in Sweden last month), the divorce papers, pictures of his children etc.

It really hit me then, the fact that he has his past, and that past will always play a part in our relationship as well. He can spend time with his children as often as he wants to, and eventually I will also meet them and their mother, his ex-wife. I know I will get along with his children perfectly, thanks to my job in a kindergarten. But the thought of meeting his ex-wife is kind of scary. I don't have any experience in this kind of a situation. And from what my boyfriend has told me, the separation wasn't at all easy for his wife, so I can't expect it to go smoothly when I finally meet her. But I guess that I shouldn't worry about it too much yet, I just have to let things progress by time.

Even though I've had a lot to deal with here, one thing hasn't changed. I love him so much, and I know that he loves me as well. I already count the days until he comes back home... And I really hope that the coming week will go by very fast. ;)

Back Home Again...

Apr 6, 2008
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Last week I had my winter holiday, and I travelled to northern Finland, to a city called Oulu. I have relatives living there, and I travelled there by car with my grandpa and mum.

I had a splendid time there. It's been about 1,5 years since I last visited the place and my relatives; I usually go there every summer, but since I had to work last summer, I didn't have time. So, it was wonderful to visit the places and stay over people I love.

The week seemed to go by so fast... Suddenly it was Sunday morning, and I was sitting in a train, on my way back home. It was sad, since I would have wanted to stay a little longer... Having to go back to work on Monday wasn't at all nice, but I have overcome it. :P I hope I can see my beloved relatives again soon!

And the Silver Medal Goes to...

Mar 2, 2008
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The pattern (Poomsae in Korean) tournament in Kokemäki is now happily over, and I have to say that I had so much fun there with my friends!

Jari Tattari participated in 2 different series, and he did very well. In Male General he was 11th, and in Male Blue-Red Belters he was 3rd.

I participated in 3 series. In Female Blue-Red Belters, I was 11th.

Me and Linda Kindt (my dear friend) were 5th in Upper Pairs.

Me, Linda Kindt and Mari Aalto were also in group poomsae series, and we got second!

Getting second was a huge and pleasant surprise to all of us. We just couldn't expect to be placed second, even though our points were good. Being rewarded with silver medals was a wonderful peak to the day!

As the Head of our team, I must say that I'm very proud of everybody. We all did our best there, even though the day was awfully long. The team work between us girls worked perfectly, and the whole team of ours had the best spirit I've ever experienced personally.

I'm looking forward to the next competition! Luckily it will take place in few weeks. :)

What a Relief!

Feb 29, 2008
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Taekwondo - Jill - Apchagi

One of my friends really made my whole week today.

For the past week I've suffered from a terrible migraine. One of the causes to it has been a Taekwondo tournament, which will take place tomorrow in Kokemäki. It's a town in South-West Finland, about 250 km (3 hours of driving) away from my hometown Nurmijärvi.

The tournament is going to be very exciting, but the thing that has been stressing me out this week was that I was supposed to drive my team there. I love driving, don't get me wrong, but when I have to drive to a far-away location I don't know well, I get very anxious...

Then, today, I found out that one of my friends, who has a car and a GPS-navigator, wanted to go and drive us there! You can't imagine the euphoric feeling that swoop over me, when I heard this!

Thanks to him, I can now fully concentrate to my own performance in the tournament as a competitor and the Head of our team, and also enjoy the trip much more in whole.

Well, it's going to be very long day tomorrow, so I guess I'm off to bed now. I have to get up at 5:30 a.m., and I guess I'm back home somewhere around 11 p.m.

So, good night to all of you! :)

Just another Newbie...

Feb 23, 2008
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Niina YO 2007_1_kiitos1

As a new Vox user, I probably should introduce myself... :)

My name is Niina, and I'm a 19-year-old (going on 20) girl from Finland.

In my family, there are 3 people. I live with my mom and my little sister, but my father lives quite near us. My parents divorced a year ago.

I graduated from Senior High school last December, and now I'm working as an assistant in a Swedish-speaking nursery school. It's a really cool job!

My hobbies include Taekwondo, belly dancing, jogging, driving, writing short stories and a novel, singing, painting and reading. In other words, I spend very little time at home doing nothing... :D

Taekwondo is the biggest passion in my life. I've practised for 4 years now (I have a second degree blue belt), in a team called Hwarang TKD Nurmijarvi. It's the best team ever - my coaches and fellow practitioners are so wonderful! They're like a second family to me.

Well, I guess this is enough for an introduction. More about me and my daily life in writings to follow... :)

~ Niina

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achachi said:

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Its really a wonderful pic, can u send them all to me if you can? read more
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Mike said:
Welcome back Niina! It's been really boring here without you hehe! :P :D read more
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Jillianiina said:
Thank you so much for the compliments! :) xxx read more
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Mike said:
Oh babe well done! You're an awesome team leader! :)xx read more
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Mike said:

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Driving long distances when you're young can be very daunting indeed!Good luck tomorrow Niina, I know you'll lead your team... read more
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